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I have marked this as an essay because it really is the only suitable title for the following rant. Please note, those of you who are unlucky enough to have me on your friends list, this will be long.

( essay under cut )

Title: Salrynn’s Shrine
Word Count: 3128
Rating: M/NC-17/18 Whatever country you’re in
Chapter: 5/?
Warnings: Yaoi, manxman, mpreg, lemon, angst, may contain spoilers and chapter two is not work-safe.
Disclaimer: One Piece was made by a very strange fellow named Eiichiro Oda. It is his brainchild and I take no credit for it.
Summary: That island had seemed rather nice, normal, and pretty much like all the other islands they had visited - inasmuch as it had many pretty girls whom Sanji liked to gander at and (unsuccessfully) flirt with. It also had an unusually high number of same-sex couples, or so he had presumed in most cases, and it wasn’t until they had left the island some months ago that he realised why.
Comments: Hey guys! I’m so sorry about the lateness of this chapter. I can’t even remember when I last updated >__> I’ve been insanely busy recently; I moved house over the Summer and I recently started college, so things have been a bit hectic and have left little time for fic writing. The first part of this was written in dribs and drabs, so you’ll have to bear with the crappiness until the gears get set in motion properly, if you know what I mean. Enjoy~



( Chapter Five )

I thought I'd try my hand at some original fiction. It is BL, and rather long for my standards. C&C is appreciated muchly~

Synopsis: Gabriel is an unwillingly virginal adolescent bouncer who has recently come to terms with his sexuality. Sid is a penniless, pansexual ex-circus performer who always finds ways to waste money on going out to drink. When Gabriel takes a drunken Sid home one evening, a temporary living arrangement soon evolves into much more.
Word Count: 7,632
Author: Beau
Rating: PG-13 for now, will go up later
Warnings: M/M, swearing, violence, sex later, unbeta’d

( Chapter One )

Title: Gift
Author: psychedelicspit
Part: 1/1
Rating: PG
Pairing: LeexGaara
Genre: Fluff (don't laugh, try and broaden your horizons mofo)
Summary: Gaara realises the importance of his birthday, with the help of a particular spandex-clad young man.
Comment: LeexGaara is, and has been for a very long time, one of my favourite pairings. I have until now yet to write it, however. I can’t decide whether this is IC or OOC, but this is more of an experiment than anything, so that‘s up to you to decide. Despite this, I hope you enjoy it.


( “Gift” )

Ugh, another four days without internet. I love this house, I really do, but couldn't the previous tenants have used the phone line? It hasn't been used in so long its like rusted beyond belief.

Nevertheless I shall talk about some of the things I have been up to in the last week. Went to enrol on wednesday, which went well, only mum had to pay £60 -- £30 studio fee (for materials) and £30 for trips. Apparently we're going to the Sachi (i probably spelt that wrong) Museum in London next month (either that or the Tate Modern, but my teacher said that she wants to give us a shock and as so many people have been to the Tate Modern already it'll probably be the Sachi). I might be going to Barcelona as well @__@ I also had my photo taken for my student ID card. Worst. Photo. Ever. I look like an obese relative of Gok Wan. I noticed that whenever people take photos of me or I appear in films I look very very Asian @__@ I know I -am- part Asian but I'm only like 1/16 Chinese so it really shouldn't be that obvious. Ugh.

Anyway, my induction day is on the 10th. If its nice weather I just bring myself and some drawing materials etc, but if its crappy I bring a load of old materials like bubblewrap and foam and whatever. Sounds interesting...

In other news, I finally had my shelves put up so i can put away some manga and CDs. One more box empty. I have also started writing chapter five of Salrynn's Shrine as well so that should be up within the next week or so, between getting ready to start college and such. I have a small confession to make =.= I started work on a little LeeGaa oneshot in the time I could've been writing Salrynn's Shrine, but I wasn't very inspired to write it at the time so it wouldn't have been all that great anyway. The cats were spayed over a week ago and tomorrow they're getting their collars taken off.

I've also decided to cosplay Squalo for the expo. I found a costume on eBay for like £40 and the wig will probably be the same >.> But the good thing is if I get Squalo's wig it'll mean I can cosplay Yazoo in May next year :D I get EMA so it shouldn't be too hard... I feel kind of guilty for buying it but I've had absolutely no time to make anything >__> Moving and whatnot, plus mum hasn't even thought about unpacking her sewing machine yet and I'm not even going to ask at the moment for fear of getting my head bitten off.

Oh~ life is busy.

Youngest of five, the only daughter. And yes, it's definitely influenced my personality. I'm transgender, so as I grew up I had to put up with being constantly showered with girl's gifts, frilly, home-made clothes and more stuff I hated, which I had to pretend to like - birthdays were never much fun, and they still aren't. For a trans person, it's probably the worst family to have been born into, as everyone is excited over the fact you have a vagina. It's incredibly ironic that I was meant to be male, yet I was born as the only girl after four boys. Go figure.

The worst thing is, the saying "it's what's on the inside that counts" doesn't exist in my family. My mother is incredibly superficial, and basically wants a clone of her, which I have been disowned for saying is not going to happen. My father thinks that we have a relationship like: "I take her out shopping all the time and she spends all my money on pretty girl's things!" Which I don't. That happened once, when I was nine, and it was because my mother had told my dad that I needed more clothes (without my knowledge), so my dad lied and said that we were going to buy a birthday present for his then girlfriend when actually he was trying to make me buy girl's clothes. I was much happier with my hand-me-downs...

Nevertheless I got him back by going into Monsoon and spending £165 on four items of clothing that I pretty much picked out at random and never wore.

But apart from the obvious disagreements between me and my parents, my childhood was actually quite happy. I had four older brothers, so I was quite happy to use my brother's toys, wrestle with them, go scrumping in Canewdon and break my arm falling out of trees. When I was 11 I cut my hair off (to my mum's horror), and gradually got a lot more masculine, especially after the death of my second oldest brother Chris, which I didn't deal with well. Mostly because my mother had sent me to a school where I didn't know anyone and I dealt with that alone.

It was mostly because, though we had a laugh, our family wasn't close. My older brothers are very much like my grandfather; I don't know if they hold his exact view, but they seem to follow the idea that sadness is a weakness, so they never showed grief. Greg didn't deal with it fantastically, but he's very close to my dad and he had a lot of friends by that point. I didn't; I don't speak to my dad about anything as a rule, and my mother - well, that was out of the question. She left me to deal with it on my own while she grieved on her boyfriend's shoulder, so I was left with nobody.

So I spent five long years of tedium at King Edmund's Shit School of Business and Enterprise. Out of all the people I met, I left with one person I can honestly say is a friend (Lizzie). The others only really talk to me if I bother with them. I've left now and I don't know if I'll ever have friends like I had in Canewdon, but I guess I can always try at SEEC. If I don't, I think it's safe to say that after seven years of unsuccessfully attempting to make friends, I will be officially socially retarded and will spend the rest of my days alone.

The annoying thing is, when you're trans, it's difficult to make friends. Then people act like it's your own fault - that if you want friends you should just stop being trans. The ignorance of these people is amazing. You can't just stop feeling something. If somebody you loved died you wouldn't be able to just stop feeling depressed. If you got dumped you wouldn't just stop feeling sad. If you were raped, you wouldn't just stop feeling dirty. If you're trans, you can't just stop feeling suicidal. Emotions aren't light switches. People who say that have obviously got no life experience, or have never been in a situation where they've hit rock bottom, and seem to think that they have a right to judge those that have. People like this can be disregarded immediately, because I don't have time for people without consciences.

It's not the transgender person that's the problem; it's the ignorance and narrow minds of the people around them that stop them being happy. Trangenderism is so much easier to deal with when the people around you accept you and support you. It stops you feeling like there's something wrong with you, like there's no reason to live, and results in less deaths.

I have gone right off my point.

What I'm saying is, if you're going to have children, don't try and shove -ANY- ideas down their throats, because they'll just resent you for it later. Children are people who grow into adults, with aspirations and dreams. Nobody, not even a parent, has a right to take that away from them. Your child will become an individual who will eventually run their own life, and will do what they want with it. It's not fair to decide your child's future, regardless of how good your intentions are. Doing so is simply selfish, and there's no room for that where the child is concerned.

Moving is killing me. I spent the whole day yesterday painting the new kitchen with mum and the day before that was spent shifting furniture. Needless to say, my back is currently locked and refusing to move. I think I'm getting old before my time...

So yes, I think I've already mentioned that I'm incredibly busy. For that reason, I'm going on a temporary hiatus (no, I really mean it). I don't have time to write fics or anything right now so the end of the month is the very earliest I will be able to even finish writing chapter five Salrynn's Shrine, which I can't wait for because lack of One Piece makes me sad. On top of that, college starts very soon after we move in so its looking like things won't go back to normal for about another month or so. Please bear with me, I want to write and am tempted to do some now, but alas, packing calls.

I suck, I know.

Title: Salrynn’s Shrine
Word Count: 4178
Rating: M/NC-17/18 Whatever country you’re in
Chapter: 4/?
Warnings: Yaoi, manxman, mpreg, lemon, angst, may contain spoilers, chapter two is not work-safe.
Disclaimer: Oda owns all. All bow to the Dark Lord.
Summary: That island had seemed rather nice, normal, and pretty much like all the other islands they had visited - inasmuch as it had many pretty girls whom Sanji liked to gander at and (unsuccessfully) flirt with. It also had an unusually high number of same-sex couples, or so he had presumed in most cases, and it wasn’t until they had left the island some months ago that he realised why.
Comments: Slightly quicker update than planned. Its been about a week or so since I last updated (I think). Enjoy~ I’d also like to tell you that its really not going to be all sunshine and happiness - there will be angst. Be warned.



( Chapter Four )

SHITSDINVGSLNG45%^@

Okay I'm over it now. Well, that's another good plot twist Oda. Still a lot of unanswered questions though. Me and Greg had a discussion over this just now and... the information still leaves a lot of possibilities open.

If Gold Roger really is Ace's dad (and this is marine intelligence, so we don't know for sure) then he must be Luffy's father too, because Rouge died in childbirth with Ace, and if Ace is three years older then they can't have the same mother. Unless, of course, she isn't dead, which I get the feeling she isn't.

But, we've been lead to believe that Dragon is Luffy's father, which would make Ace and Luffy cousins, but that can't be right cuz the whole Impel Down part and a lot of arcs before have revolved around the two being brothers.

Me and Greg think that Dragon and Gold Roger are brothers, and after Roger died he told Garp and Dragon to look after the two of them, which they seem to have been doing - Garp's crazy training, Dragon showing up at... was it Whiskey Peak? I don't remember, that was forever ago >.>;

But yeah. We'll just have to see.

In other news... me and Liz went to see Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince today. It's okay... they missed out a lot, which sucked, and there wasn't as much Ron/Hermione as there was meant to be, but Rupert Grint had Swine Flu so thats probably why, ha. Though the other girl kissed him... hm :/ Still, very good special effects but you can tell it was directed by someone different. I think the others were better, but it was still very good. Everyone said it was hard to follow, but it seriously wasn't, and I didn't even read the book. I did, however, sit next to Lizzie, who had, so I knew what was and wasn't meant to happen. It was still quite easy to follow I think, because most of it I gathered myself. I wish they'd gone into more detail about why Snape killed Dumbledore though (Lizzle told me). Very sad ending.

I was more disturbed by the people on the bus though. Fucking... random bucktooth nerd who spoke like an old man gave me his number, then some dude who looked older than my dad and who I could only presume to be the other boy's father started trying to chat us up. He asked us where we liked to drink, and didn't believe us when we said we were sixteen. I should've said 'The Cliff' (gay bar) like Liz told me to. Then, when mum dragged me to Peacock's last week some other creep starting trying it on in Victoria fucking Circus. Fuck off, please.

Still, it is mildly flattering that I've only been out twice in the past two weeks and have been approached three times. Even if they were all ugly. And I didn't see anyone I found attractive today, but why can't someone nice start talking to me? UGH. Anyway, Liz is going to give that dude's number to Melania, which should be funny. Apparently she phones up 0800 Reverse sometimes and just starts yelling at them in Polish and stuff. Good times.

Also saw Sammie in town and sort of freaked out because she told me Jake (a boy I used to go to school with - including primary school, she's good friends with him) has Swine Flu, and we both started getting headaches at the same time. I got it really heavily in my temples, and then a bit later me and Liz were walking around Superdrug and we both started getting it really bad, and Sammie said she had one too.

I seriously hope it's just me being stupid, but mum said the symptoms are like... you get really bad headaches, and you cant open your eyes because it hurts so badly, and it hurts when you breathe in too. It's probably nothing anyway, and its pretty much gone now, except my ears feel a bit funny, and I have a funny feeling in my head just above them. Like when you press down on a joint. I think its like Liz said, probably just the bright lights after having been in a dark cinema for a long time. Or maybe it was my glasses... I don't know. If I get any worse I'll be sure to see a doctor.

I still don't understand why everyone is freaking out though. Two older men died, and a six year old girl died in London, but that was because they said it was tonsillitus so it didn't get treated.

Title: Salrynn’s Shrine
Word Count: 4261
Rating: M/NC-17/18 whatever country you’re in
Chapter: 3/?
Disclaimer: One Piece belongs to Oda-sensei. I merely borrow his characters for my own amusement.
Summary: That island had seemed rather nice, normal, and pretty much like all the other islands they had visited so far - inasmuch as it had many pretty girls that Sanji liked to gander at and (unsuccessfully) flirt with. It also had an unusually high number of same-sex couples, or so he had presumed in most cases, and it wasn’t until they had left the island some months ago that he realised why.
Comments: Chapter three. I hope this compensates for the total lack of other crewmembers in the first two parts *fails at life* Thanks for the comments, and enjoy~ ^__^



( Chapter Three )

Title: Salrynn’s Shrine
Word Count: 4048
Rating: M/NC17/18 Whatever country you’re in
Chapter: 2/?
Disclaimer: I don’t own One Piece. I’d love to, though.
Summary: The island had seemed rather nice, normal, and pretty much like the all the other islands they had visited - inasmuch as it had many pretty girls whom Sanji liked to gander at and (unsuccessfully) flirt with. It also had an unusually high number of same-sex couples, or so he had presumed in most cases, and it wasn’t until they had left the island some months ago that he realised why.
Comment: I’m sorry for the wait - I wanted to update earlier but my lemon writing drive apparently fucked off for a week. But anyway, here it is, ladies and gents~ and thanks for the comments, as well.



( Chapter two )

Title: Salrynn's Shrine
Word Count: 3382
Rating: M/NC-17/18 whatever country you’re in
Chapter: 1/?
Disclaimer: I think it goes without saying that I don’t own One Piece, because I would be much more awesome if I did.
Summary: That island had seemed rather nice, normal, and pretty much like all the other islands they had visited so far - inasmuch as it had had many pretty girls that Sanji liked to gander at and (unsuccessfully) flirt with. It also had an unusually high number of same-sex couples, or so he had presumed in most cases, and it wasn’t until they had left the island some months ago that he realised why.
Comments: Holy crap I don’t think I’ve ever written a summary that long. Well, quick introduction - I’m Beau and this is my first ever zosan fic, so characterisations might be kind of bad, even though I have been lurking in this fandom for five years. (Yes, I counted.) Contains mpreg later on, rated for later chapters.


( Chapter One. )

...Oh yes.